I’m the first in my family to go to college and that made it so much tougher because I had absolutely no idea what I was doing. My parents don’t even speak English, how did I think they were going to help me or even understand me during my college adventure. Since, I didn’t know anyone who went to college, I had to base my entire expectation on movies….. it definitely isn’t the same (I’m hurt!). High school Melissa was expecting something so different and I’m definitely not living my life like the movies. I guess that’s a good thing too, don’t know how I survive my college life partying or drunk (I don’t party at all, I’m a total grandma) sorry not sorry.

            Since me going to college, two of cousins have gone to college (wohoo for female progression). So I can talk to them about and they’ll definitely get my relatable college memes that I text them. Our parents never understand us and it can get really hard because I just wanna nap everywhere and they’re not digging it. I really like learning new things and talking about important controversial things because I like knowing people’s opinions. And that annoys my family so much! When people say don’t talk about politics or religion with your family and friends, they really mean DON’T DO IT. It’s either I’m mad or they’re mad, it’s not fun. That Akon song “Lonely” starts playing in the background (it’s a good song, but it’s a sad song too. So it’s not fun to have as your background song or theme song).

            College is hard and I honestly hate it…. But Imma still go tho. Being completely immersed was definitely the toughest thing in my life. I had absolutely no idea what to do and I was so scared. I think the thing I was scared of the most was the fact that my mom couldn’t sign me out of class and have it be ok because in college, you miss five minutes of lecture and feel completely and totally lost. Shout out to my mom for signing me out of class in high school, you the realest.  

            I didn’t feel like I fit in at school, I still do. I think that’s because when I first got to college I thought there was gonna be a lot more diversity. The first Mexican person I saw was one of the construction workers that was working on campus….. really disappointed in that. I was really sad that I couldn’t speak Spanish to anyone or campus, I love speaking Spanish. I grew up speaking Spanish, everyone in my high school spoke Spanish so once I got to state, I spent a lot of times talking to my parents on the phone just to make sure I didn’t forget my Spanish (but most importantly my culture).

            College is very hard and three years and I still have no freaking idea was I’m doing. But I’m still gonna keep “college-ing” (???)… that’s not a word but you know what I mean.